Battlefield sighs
The good and the bad
I have a plan
scary
really confident
scary
so scared my back hurts
trust
in the doctors
and the Goddess
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Adenoid Cystic Carcinoma
D. Lung, Right upper lobe EBUS fine needle aspiration
(smears/cell block/tissue): Positive for malignancy.
All the waiting has come down to this. Friends and family rage at the universe their fright fills every interaction. as for me I soldier on… floating past the rage and the fear out to the deep water where I shall battle the Leviathan known as cancer.
I come to the fight with my Godds by my side, they too battle not just for me but for the chance to be remembered and worshiped by those I shall meet. 
by oak and holly with clear eyes there is much I need to do.
reading radiologist
like a book left to right?
or top to bottom right to left?
will the conclusion be the same
I have the power.
A Pledge to Pagan Spirituality
By Selena Fox
I am a Pagan and I dedicate myself to channelling the Spiritual energy of my inner self to help and to heal others and myself.
I know that I am part of the Whole of nature. May I grow in understanding of the Unity of all Nature. May I always walk in balance.
May I always be mindful of the diversity of Nature as well as its Unity. May I always be tolerant of those whose race; appearance, culture and ways differ from my own.
May I use my psychic powers wisely and never use it for aggression or for malevolent purposes.
May I never use it to curtail the free will of others.
May I always remember that I create my own reality and that I have the power within me to create positivity in my life.
May I always take responsibility for my actions be they conscious or unconscious.
May I always act in honourable ways, being honest with myself and others, keeping my word whenever I have given it, fulfilling all responsibilities and commitments I have undertaken to the best of my abilities.
May I always remember that whatever is sent out returns magnified to the sender. The forces of Karma will move swiftly to remind me of my spiritual commitments when I have begun to falter from them. May I use this Karmic feedback to remain strong and committed to my Spiritual ideals in the face of adversity or negativity. May the force of my inner Spirit eliminate all malevolence directed my way and transform it into positive light. May my inner light shine so strongly that malevolence can not even enter my realm of existence.
May I continually grow in wisdom and understanding. May I see every problem that I face, as an opportunity to learn and grow and to develop spiritually.
May I act out of love for other beings on this planet — to other human, plants, animals, mineral, elementals, spirits or other entities.
May I ever be mindful that the Goddess and God in all their forms dwell within me and that this divinity is reflected through my own Inner Self, my Pagan Spirit.
May I always channel love and light through my being. May my inner Spirit, rather than my Ego self, guide all my thoughts, feelings and actions.
So Mote It Be.
Copyright © 1960 Selena Fox Circle Sanctuary P.O. Box 219 Mt. Horeb, WI. 53572 USA.
Interview from 2014
Jeremiah Myer is a Minnesotan witch who started thinking about his funeral because he’s getting older and death is part of the natural order of life. “I’m not afraid of the next step in my journey nor am I afraid of what that step will bring,” says Jeremiah. He says, when the time comes, he’ll leave with a smile on his face.
He also realizes that his funeral is, in many ways, the last time he’ll have to speak with family and friends and allow them to experience the depth of his faith. He wants his ashes to be taken up to Baker lake, near the boundary waters canoe area. Once there, his oldest son will take his ashes by canoe to the middle of the lake and pour them in. Jeremiah says, “The water from the lake flows north and I’ll travel back to the great Mother.”
Jeremiah’s funeral ritual will be a blend of Wiccan Goddess Celtic practices with his daughter-in-law and a local witch casting the circle. “I’ll write my own ritual, my ritual tools will be used and when the ritual is over they [sic] are to be gifts to these women,” says Jeremiah. He wants his patroness, Danu and her consort the Greenman, invoked during the funeral rites.
Winter rite in Minnesota
Boreiea
Honoring: Boreas, god of the north wind, and his daughter Chione, goddess of snow Date: Beginning of winter
Season: Winter
Items needed
Bowl of water and stick (incense, punk, or natural) to light and douse Candle, matches or lighter to light the stick
Bowl of barley
Libation
Offering of a paper snowflake or other gift(s). Libation bowl
Cup
In the ritual script, italicized text refers to directions and actions and isn’t meant to be spoken.
Procession
Assemble and prepare to process to the altar.
We go to the holy place with reverence and love, to honor the gods.
Proceed to enter the sacred space.
Purification of participants
Light the stick or incense and extinguish in the bowl of water, creating lustral water.
May all be made pure who wash in this water.
Pour water over the hands of each person so that they may rinse their face and hands in the lustral water.
Purification of space
Pass the bowl of barley among the participants so that each may take a handful of barley.
May all that is profane be gone from here!
Each person throws barley onto the altar, gently if indoors, with force if outside.
Invocation
Boreas of the bitter winds, lord of the north, lord of distant Thrace, master of the wintertime, purple-winged god of the darkening days,
I call to you, O Boreas, O god of cold and ice.
Chione of the snows, of the softly falling flakes and the keen and biting storms, the billowy drifts and the treacherous ice, daughter of the north,
I call to you, O Chione, O goddess of the frost.
If ever we have honored you, poured out sweet wine
in reverence and love, O great ones, deathless ones,
hear now our prayers, grant now your blessings. Praise be to you!
Statement of purpose
As the days grow short and the nights grow long, as the air grows chill and the earth stone-cold, we gather to welcome the gods of the season,
to greet you with reverence and love.
Prayers and Offerings
We welcome you, O Boreas, who rules the lands of ice and rime, who in your season brings to us a frost to rest the weary earth, a chill to set
our bones a-shiver, to set the world anew.
We welcome you, O Chione, mistress of the snows, whose might it is that cloaks the land in alabaster white, whose hand it is that dips each tree in shining ice, whose gift it is to grace the world with beauty..
O gods of the cold and silent lands, O gods
on whose power we rely, in whose good will we trust,
we thank you for your many blessings, we praise your might. For your care and warding in seasons past, we thank you;
we pray to you, O gods, grant us your enduring favor.
For a safe return from uncertain travels, we thank you;
we pray to you, O gods, grant us your enduring favor.
For abundance granted each wintertide, we thank you;
we pray to you, O gods, grant us your enduring favor.
Hold up paper snowflakes or other gifts.
We offer you this token of our thanks, O gods.
Place gifts on altar.
Libations
Pour wine, milk, or other liquid offering into cup, hold up filled cup.
To noble Hestia, who ever comes first and last, We offer this drink; all praise to you, O Hestia!
Pour out some drink into the libation bowl; hold up cup, refilling if necessary.
To Boreas of the cold north wind, winter’s lord,.. We offer this drink; all praise to you, O Boreas!
Pour out some drink into the libation bowl; hold up cup , refilling if necessary.
To Chione of the snows, capricious and comely, .. We offer this drink; all praise to you, O Chione!
Pour out some drink into the libation bowl; hold up cup , refilling if necessary.
To noble Hestia, who ever comes last and first, We offer this drink; all praise to you, O Hestia!
Pour out some drink into the libation bowl; hold up cup, refilling if necessary. We share this drink among ourselves with love for the gods
and gratitude for all we have been given.
Pass the cup among the participants.
Thanks
We thank you, O gods, for your presence this day
as we celebrate your festival with reverence and joy. We thank you, O gods, for your many blessings,
for the great gifts you grant to humanity.
With love and devotion we praise and honor you.
Close
We leave this holy place, with reverence and gratitude for all we have been given. The rite is ended.
Step away from the altar and leave the sacred space.
Prayers spoken at dawn
rite of Her sacred fires
1. Preparation
Find a quiet place where you will be able to perform the rite undisturbed. You will need a candle (or another form of devotional fire such as a lamp or hearth fire) and something with which to light it. You may wish to consecrate the candle or other materials you will be using in keeping with your usual tradition of working, otherwise please simply ensure that it is clean.
2. Prelude
Make yourself comfortable, breathe deeply and find your point of balance, a balance of mind and soul and body, which will present you proud and beautiful to the world. Breathe deeply and find your voice, the voice with which you will speak words of true and pure intent. Breathe deeply and call upon the freedom within your heart so that you will be able to express yourself with purity of intent and with strength of desire.
Place both your hands on your heart (three heartbeats), your forefinger and middle finger of your dominant hand to your lips (three heartbeats), and then to your brow (three heartbeats). Now enclose your thumbs within both your hands (in fists) and raise both your arms to the heavens.
Open your hands and with palm upwards in your left hand, bring your right arm to your side palm facing downwards and invoke the Goddess.
3. Invocation
“I invoke thee, Great Mistress of the Heaven, Earth and Sea,
By your mysteries of Night and Day,
By the Light of the Moon and the Shadow of the Sun
I invoke thee, Mistress of life, death and rebirth
Emerge now from the shadow realm to feed my soul and enlighten my mind,
Triple-formed Mistress of the three ways
I entreat thee, Key-bearing Mistress of the Nightwandering Souls
To bring forth your wisdom from amongst the stars
To bring down your starfire from the darkness between,
Creatrix of Light!
Goddess of the Shadow Realms! Light-bearing queen!
Whisper now your secrets!
Fire-bringer! Earthly-one! Queen of Heaven!”
[Raise both hands with palms facing upwards to the heavens (three heartbeats) and then touch the ground palms downwards]
[Sit before the candle and prepare to light it]
[Take three deep breaths and allow your senses to awaken]
Say
“Hekate, companion and guide to the mysteries
I light this sacred fire in your honour, [light fire]
Its light uniting the stars and stones, the heavens and the earth,
With this fire I express my desire for a greater understanding of your mysteries
Askei Kataskei Erōn Oreōn Iōr Mega Samnyēr Baui (repeat 3 times) Phobantia Semnē,
Great Hekate, who spins the web of the stars and governs the spiral of life
Guide me through towards pathways of understanding,
From Crossroad to Crossroad,
The Torchbearers and the Keybearers of your mysteries will always find one another”
Now sit and watch the flame flicker and dance, allow yourself to focus on the different colours in the flame,
the yellows and reds, the blues and whites, and the black. If you wish you may
decide to spend some time meditating on the flame, skrying for visions or omens.
Likewise you may wish to extinguish it and keep the candle.
Let your true self radiate brightly its beautiful mysteries from this day on forth, the flame of the fires of Hekate burns on in your heart!
Say
“I banish now the shadows of doubt from my mind,
Infused by the silence and warmth of our union
I feel your golden radiance within my heart
And the glory of knowledge on my brow,
I am a student of your mysteries.”
Extinguish the flame, then place both your hands on your heart (three heartbeats),
your forefinger and middle finger of your dominant hand to your lips (three heartbeats),
and then to your brow (three heartbeats).
Open your palms reaching towards the heaven, then reach down and touch the Earth.
[Copyright Notice]
This ritual was written in celebration of the completion of the book Hekate Her Sacred Fires and as an act of Devotion to the Goddess Hekate. Permission is given for the adaptation of this ritual for personal and group use. The ritual is designed to be performed as is but can also be incorporated into longer rituals and is compatible with most magical traditions. Whoever performs this rite takes personal responsibility for the results (or lack of results!) thereof the author cannot be held responsible for any undesired effects. This ritual may be reproduced freely for non-commercial purposes in any format electronic or printed, providing that this original notice remain intact. 
5%
the universe was created with a lot less.
4 different all right
“We haven’t said it but I know it
So hold me one last time before you go
You gave me so much to remember, baby
It was just the not knowing, that hurt the most”
DEVO
like a telescope
doctors try to see the exact moment far away that the spiral turns on itself
Hearing the words spoken and glimpsing at the not knowing… respond 4 different… all right
C
On one hand I am fearless
and on the other I am terrified
I am closing in on the last dance I wish for a slow one
